Ano ang mga dahilan kung bakit hindi nagkakaroon ng Boyfriend?

Bakit nga ba sa edad mong yan na 24 ay wala ka pa ring boyfriend ate? Ano ba kasi ang nangyari? Ano ba ang meron sila na wala ka? "Ayoko pa e. Di pa ko inlove." Asus maniwala ako. E bakit yung kapitbahay nyong 16 y/o kahapon lang sinabi nya na di pa sya inlab pero kanina nakita ko me kayakap na guy sa mall? Ano ba ate? Anung petsa na? Magtataas na naman ang pasahe sa MRT wala ka pa ring boyfriend? Ano ka ba naman? Wag ka na kasi magpapaniwala sa kasabihang kung darating ay darating at di kailangang hanapin. Panahon pa ni Tandang Sora yang kasabihan na yan e. Wala nang Wowowee para maqualify ka sa Wheel Of Fortune pag ang category ay girls na NBSB o girls na single since last millenium(may WilingWillie pa naman daw). O sige bakit nga ba zero boyfriend ka ate? Ah siguro ganito yan:

1. Hindi mo man gusto pero madalas ka lang sa bahay. O kaya ay hindi mo gusto nung una pero nagustuhan mo na rin pagtagal na maburo lang sa loob ng bahay nyo. Hindi ka naglalabas kaya ang puti puti mo pero walang kwenta dahil hindi ka man lang masilip at makausap ni kuya na matagal nang me crush sayo simula pa nung hindi pa nauuso ang dota. Tsk... ngayon si kuya, mas ginusto na lang magdota kesa maghintay na makausap ka kahit 59 seconds man lang. Tsk...

2. Lalabas ka ng bahay nyo, maglalakad ka sa kalye, pero ang lakad mo, daig mo pa si Robin Padilla. "Mga tol, tinigilan ko na yan, nakasama sa atay ko, kaya ngayon liverspread na lang". Te babae ka, at tsaka pwede patawarin mo na yang mga chucks mo at butas na pantalon? Hindi ni kuya iniisip na tibo ka pero iniisip nila na ganun ka kya dyahe kung popormahan ka nya na mas macho ka pa kesa sa kanya. 

3. O ngayon pormang lalaki ka na nga, puro boys pa mga kaibigan mo. Tapos tatanungin ka ng isa pang ate," Anung trip mong basahin nung teenage days mo?" "Wow dahil stuck-up ako sa bahay me koleksyon ako ng candy magazine." Astig, pero gusto mo lagi kasama mga boys na puro "bar room jokes" ang alam na topic. Si kuya tuloy pati tela ng damit nya umurong dahil sa pagka turn-off..

4. Oo nga minsan nakita kita nag iisa. Nakita ka din ni kuya at lumapit sya sayo. Ewan ko kung anung iniisip mo sa mga oras na yun at parang pinagsalpok na Neptune at Jupiter ang porma ng muka mo. Bakit? Di ba pwede ngumiti man lang? Me bayad ba ang pag-smile? Tsaka alam mo mabuti pa yan kilay mo nagtataas baba, samantalang yung elevator natin once in a blue moon lang makitang gumalaw. Tsk... Ang suplada ng dating mo te. Si kuya tuloy ni hindi man lang nasabi sayo kahit yung initials ng pangalan nya. Tsk..

5. Teka lang, tama ba yung narinig ko sayo nung isang araw? Na narealize mo na T.O. ang guy pag puro guys din ang kasama mo. Kaya ngayon puro girls naman ang kasama mo? Pero te, ikaw naman ngayon ang nagmukang lalaki pag kasama mo sila. Mga anghel sila at muka kang si San Pedro. Ayan limang guys papalapit sa inyo. Sakto lima lang kayo.... ... ... ahmmm... biglang bumilis yung lakad ng isa..papalayo. Whoa! lahat sila me partner, ikaw lang wala. Kasi naman di ka gumamit ng ponds kaya ayan parang pond ng oil ang muka mo te. Mag ayos din kasi ng sarili pagmiminsan at kung alam mong masyadong magaganda ang kasama mo, distansya ka konti. Kahit si Ultraman Ace ay hindi nanalo dun sa isang laban nya dahil talaga namang wala syang itatapat. Parang ikaw, ilusyon lang ang kaya mong itapat sa mga friends mong palung-palo. Hmmm... makeover kelangan mo te. Oooopss.. author lang ako ng blog na to, hindi ako parlorista. ahaha..

6. Good morning! O anu naman yan? Me bago ka na bang career? Hiring ba ng clown ngayon? Bakit ganyan kakapal make up mo? Pagpagin mo yang foundation mo, nahahatsing na din ako sa sobrang kapal nyan. Tsaka yang buhok mo, buhay pa ba ang nagkulot sayo? Nagmuka kang poodle na hindi pinakain ng isang linggo at isang isang gabi...anung nagawang kasalanan sayo ng buhok mo? Te wag namang OA. Make over hindi make over acting. Ok?

7. Anung ginagawa mo? OO, alam ko nagbabasa ka ng libro. Pero bakit? Bakit si Edward na naman? Lagi na lang bang si Edward? Andito naman si Popoy, wala ba syang karapatang mahalin? Te pag ganyan ng ganyan magnewnew moon, mag eeclipse at magugunaw ang mundo pero mananatili kang single at mamamatay na nagpapantasya. Si Edward ay hindi totoo at walang ganyang kaperfect na guy na nag eexist sa mundo. Eto si Popoy, pansinin mo naman sya. Si Popoy ang muka ng reality kaya sana wag ka nang choosy. :-(

8. O ano? Sinasabi mo na gusto mo nang magkaboyfriend pero di mo naman maiwan yang pinagkakaabalahan mo. Te pag weekends pahinga ka naman. Hayaan mo na muna yang Barangay and have time for yourself. Tsaka ambata mo pa para maging ganyan ka kaaktibo sa homeowners association. Tsk... Me palabas ngayon, yung My Valentine Girls. Pag inaya ka ni Popoy, pagbigyan mo din. Hindi ko sinabing para mapanuod mo yung role ni Eugene Domingo pero mas ok na mapanuod mo. Te have time for yourself and to some other thing. Di ka magkaka-bf kung kahit katiting ng time mo ay hindi mo kayang ispend para sa love and romance.

9. Oo naiintindihan ko. Bread winner ka pero kahit ang tinapay ay paminsan minsang naghahanap ng kape na mapagsasawsawan. Ate lahat ng tao ay naiintindihan ang kalagayan mo, at kahit ang pamilya ay siguradong magiging masaya kung sa edad mong yan ay may someone ka na nagtetext sayo ng "i love you babe", "Kain ka na po, wag ka pagutom", "good nyt babe, mawawalang ng ningning ang mga tala pero ang ilaw mo'y di kailanman maglalamlam (dinaig pa philips bulb)". Yung mga ganyang text tsaka maexperience mo man lang magkaron ng hindi pekeng "in a relationship" na status sa facebook. Di ba masaya yun? Te maikli lang ang buhay, enjoy mo sarili mo. Lagyan mo ng kulay ang buhay mo...patulong ka kay Popoy. (epic na si Popoy)

10. Get over from your past. Sabi nga ni Master Oogway (yung pagong na master ng kungfu) sa Kungfu Panda: Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift. That is why it is called the present. Ang ibig sabihin nyan, kalimutan mo na yung past mo. Kung sinaktan ka ni Buknoy noon, decades ago, wag isipin na ganun din ang gagawin ni Popoy (nabanggit na naman si Popoy. Naalala ko tuloy yung dati kong crew mate sa Wendy's na palaging puyat pero palaging nakangiti. Tsk..) Malay mo, pag naging kayo ni Pops (Popoy) maging ok ang relasyon nyo. Wala kang idea kung ano ang mangayari sa future pero lalo ka namang magiging clueless kung hindi mo susubukan. Hindi mo malalaman na "gift" pala ang pag-ibig at ito'y dapat na magsimula na ngayon. Kaya kung ako sayo iexperience mo magmahal ulit at mahalin. At wag mong ipreserve nang matagal yang matamis mong "oo"...papait ang lasa nyan.

Pops ok na. San ka na Pops? Popoy? Ready na si ate. San ka na Poy? Tsk... ang tagal ko sinulat to tapos hindi rin pala magiging kayo. Pero teka, anong meron sa mata mo ngayon? Hindi naman yan dahil sa contact lens di ba? Ang ganda ganda pala ng mata mo, ngayon ko lang napansin. Parang nakakamagnet ang tingin mo...Ahmmm...wag ka naman tumingin ng ganyan...nadadala ako e. Single din ako, sige ka. :-)

Ahahaha... at sana pagkatapos mo to basahin, makapag isip ka kung ano ba talaga ang gusto mo. Kumanta ng "Single Ladies" habang panahon o simulan nang kumanta ng "You belong With Me". :-)

Top 10 Lines ng mga Babae pag Ayaw Nila sa Isang Lalake.

Kung papakinggan, parang ok lang ang tunog. Malumanay, mahinhin at parang labag talaga sa loob nya at kelangan nya lang talaga gawin. Pero kung mababasa mo iniisip niya, baka mawasak puso mo. ahaha.. Ok, para malaman mo kung ano ang katotohanan. Basahin mo to:

10. Parang kapatid lang kita na lalaki.

      (Kamuka mo si Bondying.)

9. Umm... Ang laki kasi ng gap ng edad natin e.

    (Parang tatay na kita e.)

8. Hindi ako attracted sayo sa ganitong paraan.

    (Ang pangit mo kasi... tsk..)

7. Kumplikado buhay ko ngayon.

    (Marami akong boylets. Nahihirapan ako pumili. Wag ka na dumagdag. At kung multiple choice a,b,c,d ang pagpipilian...letter e ka.)

6. May boyfriend na ako.

    (Mas masaya ako sa alaga kong aso at pusa.)

5. Magkatrabaho/Classmates tayo, hindi ako pwede makipagdate sayo.

    (Hindi tayo magkauri. Tao ako, si Kingkong  ka)

4. Actually, nasa akin talaga yung problema, wala sayo.

    (How can you face your problem if your problem is your face?)

3. Focus ako sa career/studies ko.

    (Mas ok pang mabored ng husto sa work/studies kesa makipagdate sayo na walang kasing

     boring kasama.)

2. Magmamadre ako.

    (Mas "hot" pa sa'yo si Father)

1. Friends na lang tayo. Text-text.

    (Ummm... Kwentuhan na lang kita about sa guy na napili ko.)

Ouch!

Katuwaan lang to and i dont believe na lahat ng girls ay ganito. Dont take it seriously. Pero kung masapul ka...sorry.. di ko sinasadya. Bakit mo kasi binasted ang kapitbahay ko! ahaha..

Coming soon... ang ganti ng mga lalaki! "Top 10 Lines ng mga Lalake pag Ayaw Nila sa Isang Babae.?!"

Heart to Heart

Nagmumuni muni ako sa mga oras na to. Hindi ako si Papa Jack pero sa mga oras na to, gusto ko dinggin ang mga hinanaing ng mga taong sawi, mga iniwan ng minamahal, mga taong kusang lumayo dahil nagpaubaya, mga taong nagmahal at naghangad lang naman maging masaya pero kalungkutan at luha lang pala ang mapapala after all...pause.... Haisst... Hindi rin naman ako emo.. tsaka me kalawang na yung blade. Baka matetano ako at matuluyan. Tsk.. di pwede to. Divert natin to sa ibang bagay. Idinaan ko sa sound tripping. Medyo marami na rin akong napakinggan hanggang natagpuan ko nga tong song na to. Nahook-up ako sa lyrics. Ang ganda e, masaya yung sinasabi. Pero napaisip ako. Ganito kasi yung sabi ng kanta:

If there's one thing in this world that I know is true
It's the love that I feel when I'm thinking of you
No ocean or mountain can keep us apart
Coz no one can take away someone who lives in your heart
All the hopes and the dreams are alive
I'll carry you with me through distance and time
Nothing in this world can keep us apart
Coz no one can take away someone who lives in your heart.


Ito ba'y totoo o kalokohan lang? Ang sabi'y isa lang daw ang nalalaman nyang katotohanan at yun daw ay ang pagmamahal na nararamdaman nya pag sya'y naiisip nya. (Ang tindi nu?) Eto pa, wala daw dagat at bundok na makakapaghiwalay sa kanila. (Hardcore di ba?) Pero ang sabi'y kaya daw ganun ay dahil nandun at naninirahan ka na raw sa kanyang puso at wala nang makakapaghiwalay pa sa inyong dalawa. Ang tanong e, panu kung ang nangyari ay "illegal settler" lang pala sya dyan sa puso mo at gustuhin mo mang manatili sya dyan ay wala ka ding magagawa kung paalisin sya ng mas otoridad na katumbas ng gobyerno na nagpapademolish ng mga libo-libong squaters sa Manila? Panu kung meron naman pala talagang tunay na naninirahan dyan at sa kung anumang dahilan ay umalis muna pansamantala ngunit dala pa rin ang titulo at ang mga katibayan na pagmamay-ari nga nya ang tahanang iyan sa puso mo? Anung gagawin mo? Ikaw ngayon ay ang magsisilbing ahensya na kung saan ay didinig sa kasong ito at ikaw ang magdedesisyon kung sino ang may karapatang manatili sa nag-iisang tahanang iyan sa puso mo. Sino ang pipiliin mo? Si A na binigyan mo ng authentic na titulo at lahat ng teknikal na karapatan para panghawakan at gawing pagmamay-ari ang tahanan sa puso mo o si B na kumatok, pinahalagahan ka ng husto, minahal ka (kahit walang kondisyon) at pinatira mo sa tahanang iyan nung time na wala si A. Si A na inabandona ang tahanang iyong pinagkatiwala sa kanya para sa dahilang siya lang ang tunay na nakakaunawa. Kung si A ang pipiliin mo, bagamat legal at sya ang may hawak ng mga dokumentong binubuo ng mga pangako at naunang sumpaan, magiging masaya ka pa ba sa kanya? Kung si B ang pipiliin mo, handa ka bang balewalain ang lahat legalidad na orihinal na napasakamay ni A, ibasura ang long time commitment na meron kayo ni A kapalit ng totoong pagmamahal na naramdaman mo kay B? Si B na hindi humingi sayo ng kahit anong assurance na mamahalin mo sya ng totoo at magsstay ka para kanya dahil maligaya na sya na bigyan ka ng walang kapantay, wagas at handang magsakripisyo na uri ng pagmamahal at sinubok ng panahon ngunit di sya natinag at di sya umalis sa tabi mo.


Magdedesisyon ka. Sundin ang batas na binuo at pinagtibay ng matagal ninyong pagsasama at batas na nasaksihan at sinang-ayunan ng mahahalagang tao sa inyong buhay o kaya'y sundin ang exception na itinakda ng natural na pagbabago ng panahon na sinuportahan ng infamous na pilosopiya ng totoong pagmamahal ngunit tinututulan ng nakakarami. Quantity o Quality? Panahong napakahaba na nanatili kayo para sa isat isa na sinang ayunan ng lahat pero halos aksidente lang na naayos nyo ang mga gusot na sumubok sa inyong pagsasama o panahong maikli na ang naging aksidente lang ay minamahal nyo ng lubos ang isat isa, pinoprotektahan ang isat isa sa kabila ng kahit mundo'y tutol sa inyong pagmamahalan.


Close your eyes for a while and listen to this song... Try to feel kung ano ang sinasabi ng kanta. Sure ako na makakarelate ka at kung involve ka man ngayon sa isang relationship na magulo at walang kaayusan o sa tingin mo'y darating ka pa lang sa ganung sitwasyon...please dont control your tears to fall down...

Confusions o pagkalito. Ito ang nagpapalungkot satin, ito ang minsay nagbibigay ng extrang trabaho sa ating mga tear gland. Ito ang nagpapaluha sa ating mga matang hindi naman ginawa para sa ganitong purpose. Nasan ang masayang kulay ng mundo kung ang rainbow na nakikita mo ay nanggagaling sa crystal ng maiinit na luhang pumupuno sa iyong mga mata?


Sundin ang iyong puso. Masyado ka ng nag iisip. Ang utak mo'y pagod na at humihingi na ng pahinga... Andyan ang puso mo at bagamat itoy walang sariling isip, may kakayanan itong magdesisyon. Kelangan mo lang maniwala. At kung meron ka pa ring duda at natatakot na baka magkamali at lalo kang masaktan pag puso ang mas ginamit mo...hayaan mong ishare ko sayo ang paniniwala ko sa buhay..." I'd rather have a life full of mistakes than a heart full of regrets."


Ciao. Till next time. :-)

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Im Yours (song cover by reyner and jeric)

This is our own cover of Im Yours by Jason Mraz. The lines shown here are also from the song titled Im Yours by the band The Script. The animated characters was my all time favorite video game characters.
I have sing this song to let her know that im her man...but of course she still have options. LOL.

The Lollipop

There's this story about a two people who happened to be office mates (before). The story partially evolved with a single, common, unpopular stuff called as "lollipop".

Adam as the guy's name, has this kind of weird habit of giving a lollipop to this girl whom have name as Alice. He always manage to give her a single lollipop every day during office time. Lucky for him, Alice appreciate it and decided to just accept the lollipops and return nothing but a sweetest smile which makes Adam feel like a bird flying in happiness. In short, they became close to each other (but not too close i guess). They have shared quiet lots of things with each other and just like any sweet and romantic story, one of them fell in love (even more) to another and that is Adam to Alice.

That was a couple of day before Valentines day but it has been a week or two since Adam started giving out lollipop to Alice. Maybe Alice started to wonder, "what are this lollipops for?" Then one afternoon, they got a chance to have a not so serious "texting-texting" that lately turned to a confusing and bothersome conversation. Their topic was about love. Curious Adam initiated the conversation unintentionally (it was not his intention because he only want to get close to Alice and dont have plans to bring it to another level as Alice might just reject him and kick him away...and the love topic they had that time definitely changed the color of their afternoon from happy color to the complicated one especially when the conversation went more and more personal. Adam didn't like it that way). As their conversation getting more serious, Adam decided to reveal the secret he had been keeping from inside of him for quiet long time ago. A split second when he's about to reveal his feelings to Alice, he changed his mind and pull back his finger from the "send" button. He decided to keep it for himself at the moment and might as well reveal his feelings to her at the perfect timing. Since its going to be a Valentines day soon, he thought it would be romantic if he invite the girl for a date at that very day. Although Alice insist to know what that secret is but since Adam desired to surprise her instead with the revelation on that secret, Alice just stopped asking about it.

That day, Adam really wants to let Alice know how much he love her. That he loved her from the moment he saw her. That he always wanted to be with her. That he can spend hours of long travel with her just to ensure that she can come home safely. That he can buy her a medicine every time she has a head ache. That he can definitely give her his jacket when she feel cold. That he can stay at her side as much as she will allow especially when she have problems. Most importantly, he will not waste the trust that she may give to him. But all of those phrases should be perfectly said and for them to be perfectly said, the words that should come first from Adam are those that which rationalize the cause of his wonderful plans for Alice...that word that even from the mouth of the greatest man ever stepped the earth had come out..those words that made a great songs become greatest,classical and unforgotten...those words like "I...LOVE...YOU."

Valentines day and Adam is excited. Everything that he need to surprise Alice is ready. He just have to wait for the shift to end and since Alice already agreed to go with him for that date, days before valentines day, Adam was fully confident that nothing can come to his way to ruin his date with that girl he dearly loved. Hours past and excitement keeps growing from Adam. On his excitement and maybe because theres no other thing that is running in his head that time, he approached Alice and ask the precious lady about the date. Unfortunately, instead of getting a happy response from her, these words from Alice though come out softly and gently sounded like a bang to him as loud as that bomb blasted in Buendia: "I need to go somewhere with my friends today.". Hearing those words ruptured Adams heart, tearing every tissues from his chest apart and when Alice added up this words "you wont see me again in this office...im leaving and will never come back", his heart suddenly broke into pieces and left scattered on the floor.

The next thing happened was all dramatic. The saddest music played in Adams ear and all the sadness, pain and frustrations dominated his whole body and soul. Alice left the office without even looking back at him. Hes not even sure if ever Alice thought that what she did brings unforgettable pain to him. He just let her go and because he love her, he didnt say any negative words except..."always take care...alam mo naman number ko, text ka lang pag may problema ka."

Adam decided not to tell Alice about the lollipops. He decided to keep it secret that inside each and every lollipops he gave her can be found a little note saying what he really feels for her. He decided to just keep it to himself that he never failed to tell her how much he love her. He even say it to her everyday coz if she will be able to see those little notes inserted in the hole of every handle of those lollipops, she may thought that she had been so loved from the first time she received a lollipop from him down to the last one... Too bad, he never had a courage to tell her in person how much he love her. 

Perhaps Adam will always love Alice till the the world runs out of lollipop...but would there be a chance that he can also get that love in return?

And that is how the story about the "lollipop" ends.

Build A Box Of Friendship

Into a box of friendship
To insure that it is strong
First a layer of respect
On the bottom does belong.

Then to the sides attach,
In the corners where they meet,
Several anchors full of trust,
Devoid of all deceit.

The height of friendship can be measured
By the sides of four,
So make them all a larger cut,
And the box will hold much more.

Now fill it up with courtesy,
Honor and esteem,
Understanding, sympathy,
And passion for a dream.

Add to that your honesty,
Emotions joy and love,
And since they're so important,
Place them up above

But leave the box wide open
So all can see inside,
To learn what makes a friendship work
From the box you built with pride.

10 Steps to the Perfect Kiss

You're looking into their eyes and they're gazing back. You both move in for the kiss... pause. Not to worry though. With these 10 steps, every kiss from the first to the next will be picture perfect.

Step 1. Look into your partners eyes.

In anticipation of a kiss or to initiate a kiss, start by gazing into your partners eyes. Have you heard the phrase that the eyes are the windows to a persons soul? It's true. When you gaze into your partners eyes, you'll learn their true feelings, emotions, and intentions. In an intimate situation, gazing into your partner's eyes sends an intimate message, letting them know that you want to get closer.

Step 2. Smile.

A small, suggestive small does wonders. If you want to find out if you're partner is interested, sending a suggestive smile will do the trick. If you get a smile back, you're good to go. If not, or if your partner looks down or away, you probably want to back off.

Step 3. Lean in closer.

Now that you know you're about to kiss, it's time to move in. To avoid awkwardness, move slowly. Moving in too fast can make your partner uncomfortable. As you move in, make sure that you're in a comfortable position.

Step 4. Engage in light touching.

Men: A nice touch (literally!) to the perfect kiss is to lightly touch her face as you move in. A light touch such as this promotes the feeling of intimacy between the two of you.

Step 5. Tilt your head.

Now that you're moving in, it's time to make sure that you're aligned with your partner. You want to tilt your head slightly so that your lips are lined up and there's no chance of a missed kiss. Watch as you tilt to make sure that your partner has already tilted.

Step 6. Relax your lips.

Make sure that your lips are relaxed and not tightly pressed together. The perfect kiss is pleasant, with your lips softly pressed together.

Step 7. Moisten your lips.

Lightly moistened lips make for a better kiss, so keep lip balm close. You obviously won't be able to whip out the lip balm when you're "in the moment", so prepare ahead of time. This is true for both men and women. If you're caught off guard, a quick lick of the lips will work for women. Men, you want to keep your lips a bit drier, so don't lick. Both men and women need to tread carefully here. Lips that are moistened too much can make for sloppy, slobbery kisses, while lips that are too dry make for unpleasant, rough kisses. Women, you may also want to wear a brighter red lipstick. Experts agree that the red lipstick sends sexual messages to men and is a perfect addition to the perfect kiss.

Step 8. Close your eyes.

Close your eyes as you're about to make contact. Some people feel awkward if their partner's eyes are open. Besides, you'll end up with a much more passionate kissing experience if you close your eyes and let the sensations drive you.

Step 9. Part your lips.

Now that your lips are relaxed, part them slightly as you begin contact. Don't open them too much or your partner may feel that you're 'swallowing' them. Don't keep them too closed either though because your partner may get the impression that you're not as 'in' to this kiss as they are.

Step 10. The kiss.

It's finally time for impact! Gently touch your lips to theirs and you have the perfect kiss. Be sure not to pull away too quickly. You want to take your time and enjoy it! When you do finally pull away, look your partner in the eyes again. A smile, an embrace, or a whisper letting them know that you enjoyed it are a nice way to end a kiss.

Anung Meron sa SMP?

Ito yung basic na pakahulugan sa SMP. Ito daw yung mga single, walang boyfriend/girlfriend, walang asawa, walang kalive-in, wala man lang kahit ka-"complicated relationship". Kaya daw lumamig ang pasko dahil wala man lang mayakap, walang ma-hug, walang makapalitan ng "i love you" sa text o sa tawag, walang makaputukan (syempre ng pikolo, rebentador o kwitis di ba? pero pwede na din yung iniisip mo), walang palad na maapuhap o makaholding hands tuwing fireworks habang sinasabi ang katagang "i love you baby, ang ganda ng fireworks nu? (namangha lang sa fireworks at malakas ang loob magsabi ng i love you dahil malakas ang putukan)".

Ano ngayon kung single ka ngayong pasko? Ano ngayon kung wala kang someone na malalambing at sasabihan ng:
Boy:Mahal, Merry Christmas. Sana di pa ito ang huling paskong magkakasama tayo. (kung wala pa kong mahahanap na kapalit mo.)
Girl: Merry Christmas din mahal.(Sana next year iba naman. Bad breath ka e.)

Single ka man ngayong pasko hindi problema yan. Aanhin mo naman ang karelasyon kung di naman talaga kayo nagmamahalan? :
Boy: Ayoko maging member ng SMP. Kelangan ko magkasyota.
Girl: Di na ako magiging member ng SMP dahil andito na sya.
Magiging sila para maglokohan. Magtatagal ang relasyon nila ng isang taon dahil January next year magbebreak na sila.

Bakit ka mag aalala sa pagiging kasapi ng SMP? May love partner ka nga ngayong pasko tinetake for granted ka lang naman:
Girl: Shet naman tong boyfriend ko alang kwenta. Kung di lang pasko bebreakin ko na tong basurang to e. Tsaka kung di lang dahil dito sa Black Berry na regalo nya sakin...naku. (choosy pa si ate? alang kwentang gf.)
Boy: Di ko sya maintindihan kung bakit parang CEO ng Meralco ang turing nya sakin. Ilang pasko na ding ganito. Kung inipon ko sana yung nairegalo ko sa kanya baka naipagamot ko at magaling na sana ngayon yung kapitbahay naming may TB. (ngayon isang bulate na lang ang di pa pumipirma para tuluyan ng madedo yung kapitbahay nila). Tsk.. mahal ko ba talaga sya? O baka naman sinusubukan nya lang ako.
(kawawa naman si kuya, ang totoo'y wala syang pakelam sa SMP dahil mawalan man sya ng gf ngayong pasko...sangkatutak naman ang nagmamahal sa kanya na mga kapamilya at kaibigan dahil sa sobrang bait nya....bulag at tanga lang talaga sa pag ibig ang malas na si kuya. nangyayari talaga yung ganun...huhuhuhu...nakakarelate ka ba? ako din e. huhuhu..)

Hindi mahalaga kung meron ka mang love partner ngayong pasko o wala! Ang mahalaga ay inienjoy at naeenjoy mo ang buhay kahit mag isa. Meron ka ngang karelasyon pero kabilang ka naman sa uri ng relasyong unang nabanggit, wala din, jejemon ka pag ganun. (ahehehe.. panu napasok jejemon dun? gulo nu?)

Sabi nga ni father nung minsang nagsimbang gabi ka na mag isa (at wala man lang masandalan ng ulo pag di na kinaya ang antok) "Ang pasko ay pagdiriwang para sa kapanakan ni Hesus na panginoon. Tanggapin mo sya sa iyong puso at magiging maligaya ka ngayong pasko." Ibig sabihin, hindi lang gf,bf,asawa o kabet (bigla ko naisip yung market! market! Ultimate Fighting Championship) ang magpapasaya ngayong pasko. Tingin ka lang sa paligid mo at makikita mo na nasa paligid mo lang ang mga taong magpapainit ng pasko mo (ooops.. dont get me wrong. hindi mga bading ang tinutukoy ko dito. kala mo ha. hmmm..). Andyan ang nanay mo (nestea commercial ito?), erpat mo, mga kapatid mo, mga kapatid mo sa labas, mga pamangkin mo, mga inaanak mo (o wag kang tumago..) mga tropa mo, bespren mo, kapitbahay mo at madami pang iba. WALANG DAHILAN PARA MALUNGKOT KA NGAYONG PASKO DAHIL LANG SA PAGIGING MIYEMBRO MO NG SMP! Maraming mga bagay na pwedeng magfulfill ng pasko mo at magpapasaya sayo. Kaya wag ka sanang magpanggap na "in a relationship" ka at baguhin mo na yang facebook status mo. Mas mabuti ng maging single kesa magkaron ng imaginary bf teh!


Huling Hirit:
"Maaaring naging tunay ang pagmamahalan nyo at naging maligaya kayo...di nga lang umabot ng pasko. Mabuti na yun kesa ilang pasko na ang dumaan na magkasama kayo pero nananatili pa rin kayong naglolokohan. hehe.."

A Letter for my Reishelle

Dear Reishelle.,

I know there's an ocean between us,
and I wish that it weren't true,
for every day when I arise,
I yearn to be with you.
Though a lot of distance lies between us,
you'll always be in my mind and my heart,
And every night beneath the stars,
I pray for the day we'll never be part.

Every day I will be thinking about you. When my eyes are closed, when I sing and dance to a love song, when I'm checking my FB and Mulitply, when I'm in office, I will be thinking about you. When I go to sleep in the loneliness of my room and give in to wonderful dreams I will definitely be thinking about you.

I have waited for someone like you, and now that I have found you I promise I'll take care of you the very best that I can with all of the love here in my heart and with all of the strength in my hands.
 
Love Always, 
R. V.

A Girl Who Felt Ignored

This story is about a girl who felt ignored..

I have a boyfriend who grew up with me. His name is Jin.
I always thought of him as a friend until last year, when we went to a trip from a club, I found out that I fell in love with him.
Before the trip was over, I took a step and confessed my love for him.
And soon, we became a pair of lovers, but we loved each other in different ways.
I always concentrated on him only, but by his side, there was so many other girls.
To me, he was the only one, but to him, maybe I was just another girl...
"Jin, do you want to go watch a movie?" I asked.
"I can't"
"Why? You need to study at home?" I felt disappointment grabbing me.
"No... I am going to meet a friend..."
He was always like that.
He met girls in front of me, like it was nothing.
To him, I was just a girlfriend.
The word 'love' only came out of my mouth.
Since I knew him, I had never heard I'm say 'I love you' before.
To us, there weren't any anniversaries at all.
He didn't say anything from the first day and it continued till 1O0 days...2O0 days...
Everyday, before we say goodbye, he would just hand me a doll, everyday, without fail. I don't know why...
Then one day...
Me: Um, Jin, I...
Jin: What...don't drag, just say...
Me: I love you.
Jin: ...........you.....um, just take this doll and go home.
That was how he ignored my 'three words' and handed me the doll.
Then he disappeared, like he was running away.
The dolls I received from him everyday, filled my room, one by one.
There were many....
Then one day came, my 15th year old birthday.
When I got up in the morning, I pictured a party with him, and stranded myself in my room, waiting for his call.
But... lunch passed, dinner passed...and soon the sky was dark... he still didn't call.
It was already tiring to look at the phone anymore.
2am in the morning, he suddenly called me and woke me from my sleep.
He told me to come out of the house.
Still. I felt joy and I ran out happily.
Me: Jin...
Jin: Here...take this...
Again, he handed me a little doll.
Me: What's this?
Jin: I didn't give it to you yesterday, so I am giving it to you now.
I'm going home now, bye.
Me: Wait, wait! Do you know what today is?
Jin: Today? Huh?
I felt so sad, I thought he would remember my birthday.
He turned around and walked away like nothing had happened.
Then I shouted...
"Wait..."
Jin: You have something to say?
Me: Tell me, tell me you love me...
Jin: What?!
Me: Tell me
I put my pathetic self behind and clung onto him.
But he just said simple cold words and left.
"I don't want to say...that I love someone so easily, if you are desperate to hear it, then find someone else."
That was what he said. Then ran off...
My legs felt numb...and I collapsed to the ground. He didn't want to say it easily...
How could he...
I felt that...
Maybe he is not the right guy for me...
After that day, I stranded myself at home crying, just crying.
He didn't call me, although I was waiting.
He just continued handing me a little doll every morning outside my house.
That's how those dolls piled up in my room... everyday
After a month, I got myself together and went to school.
But what made the pain resurface was that.... I saw him on a street...with another girl...
He had a smile on his face, one that he never showed me...as he touched the doll...
I ran straight back home and looked at the dolls in my room, and tears fell...
Why did he gave these to me...
Those dolls are probably picked out by some other girls...
In a fit of anger, I threw the dolls around.
Then suddenly, the phone rang. It was him.
He told me to come out to the bus stop outside my house.
I tried to calm myself down and walked to the bus stop.
I kept reminding myself that I am going to forget him, that....its going to end.
Then he came into my sight, holding a big doll.
Jin: Jo, I thought you were pissed, you really came?
I couldn't help hating him, acting like nothing had happened and joking around.
Soon, he held out the doll as usual...
Me: I don't need it.
Jin: What....why...
I grabbed the doll from his hands and threw it on the road.
Me: I don't need this doll, I don't need it anymore!! I don't want to see a person like you again!
I spitted out all the words that were inside me. But unlike other days, his eyes were very shaky.
"I'm sorry" He apologized in a tiny voice.
He then walked over to the road to pick up the doll...
"You stupid! Why are you picking up the doll?! Just throw it away!!!"
But he ignored me and just went to pick the doll.
Then...
Honk~ Honk~
With a loud honk, a big truck was heading towards him.
"Jin! Move! Move away!" I shouted...
But he didn't hear me, he squatted down and picked up the doll.
"Jin, move!"
HONK~!!!
"Boom!" That sound, so terrifying.
That's how he went away from me.
That's how he went away without evening opening his eyes to say one word to me.
After that day, I had to go through everyday with guiltiness and the sadness of losing him...
And after spending two months like a crazy person...
I took out the dolls.
Those were the only gifts he left me since the day we started going out.
I remembered the days I spent with him and started to count the days... when we were in love...
"One...two... three..."
That was how... I started to count the dolls...
"Four hundred and eighty four... four hundred and eighty five..."
It all ended with 485 dolls.
I then started to cry again, with a doll in my arms.
I hugged it tightly, then suddenly...
"I love you~, I love you~"
I dropped the dolls, shocked.
"I....lo..ve...you??"
I picked up the dolls and pressed its stomach.
"I love you~ I love you~"
It can't be!
I pressed all the dolls' stomach as it piled on the side.
"I love you~"
"I love you~"
"I love you~"
Those words came out non-stop.
I...love you...
Why didn't I realize that.....
That his heart was always by my side, protecting me.
Why didn't I realize that he love me this much...
I took out the doll under the bed and pressed it's stomach, that was the last doll, the one that fell on the road.
It had his blood stain on it.
The voice came out, the on that I was missing so much...
"Jo...Do you know what today is? We've been loving each other for 486 days. Do you know what 486 is? I couldn't say I love you.... Um... since I was too shy... If you forgive me and take this doll, I will say that i love you... everyday... till I die... Jo... I love you..."
The tears came flowing out of me. Why? Why? I asked god, why do I only know about all this now?
He can't be by my side, but he loved me until his last minute...
For that... and for that reason... to me... it became courage... to live a beautiful life...

Time Understands Love

Once upon a time there was an island where all the feelings lived; Happiness, Sadness, Knowledge, and all the others......, including Love.  One day it was announced to all of the feelings that the island was going to sink to the bottom of the ocean. So all the feelings prepared their boats to leave. Love was the only one that stayed. She wanted to preserve the island until the last possible moment.  When the island was almost totally under, Love decided it was time to leave. She began looking for someone to ask for help. Just then Richness was passing by in a grand boat. Love asked,  "Richness, Can I come with you on your boat?"  Richness answered, "I'm sorry, but there is a lot of silver and gold on my boat and there would be no room for you."  Then Love decided to ask Vanity for help who was passing in a beautiful vessel. Love cried out,  "Vanity, help me please!"  "I can't help you", Vanity said, "You are all wet and will damage my beautiful boat."  Next, Love saw Sadness passing by. Love said,  "Sadness, please let me go with you."   Sadness answered, "Love, I'm sorry, but, I just need to be alone now."  Then, Love saw Happiness. Love cried out,   "Happiness, please take me with you."  But Happiness was so overjoyed that he didn't hear Love calling to him. Love began to cry. Then, she heard a voice say,  "Come Love, I will take you with me."  It was an elder. Love felt so blessed and overjoyed that she forgot to ask the elder his name.  When they arrived on land the elder went on his way. Love realized how much she owed the elder. Love then found Knowledge and asked,  "Who was it that helped me?"  "It was Time", Knowledge answered.  "But why did Time help me when no one else would?", Love asked. Knowledge smiled and with deep wisdom and sincerity, answered, "Because only Time is capable of understanding how great Love is."

With Love, There Will be no Discrimination

I came across to a certain poem while surfing the net and this one really enlightened my mind even better. It was authored by an African child and was declared as one of the best poem ever created. It goes like this:

Coloured


When I born, I Black,
When I grow up, I Black,
When I go in Sun, I Black,
When I scared, I Black,
When I sick, I Black,
And when I die, I still black...
And you White fellow,
When you born, you pink,
When you grow up, you White,
When you go in Sun, you Red,
When you cold, you blue,
When you scared, you yellow,
When you sick, you Green,
And when you die, you Gray...
And you calling me colored??

Even though there is not much issue of racial discrimination today unlike in the past, we still have to think that discrimination of any kind should be condemned. Now here in the Philippines although there is no issue of racial discrimination, still an undying conflict between the poor and the rich is at stake. It become more extreme as time goes by as i observed. Some entity or element is favorable to rich people that makes the latter more privileged and fortunate while because of having a very low social status, poor people have gotten only an unequal treatment and sometimes inhumane treatment.

If this is the problem, why don't we just love each other and just treat each other equally regardless of color, status in life etc. What is the essence of God teachings that is being taught in different churches if a mere discrimination cannot be totally eliminate. Well maybe because even the religions has its own form of discrimination and this makes a discrimination more complicated as it seems. Well, if this is the case, is religion still necessary to attain the zero-discrimination society? Well im not atheist but even a person who doesn't believe in god can be the best one if he love and doesn't discriminate other people.

I'm not saying in general that all of those who are in an upper class are used to inequality against another. I'm thankful that there are people who still treating their fellows fair and equal. I guess they know what love is and and they understand its broadness and can even apply it in real life by making good things towards the other e.g. being not a discriminant.

Discrimination is a root of major conflicts in a history and a sole reason why most people suffer. Well its impossible to attain a discrimination free world but at least everyone is aware and everyone is able to figure out that "With Love, There Will be no Discrimination." Let's not discriminate.

The Letter

I was so blue, that day. My chances to see my one and only true love has vanished.
Way back 2002, i got inloved to this really pretty girl, in the name of... oh i rather not to mention. 
She's nice inside and out, i mean aside from her looks, she's also friendly and nice to be with.
I was barely 15 that time (young and innocent for the typical teenager, but not in my case) when i first saw her and got obsessed to her. We're living in a barrio that time where means of transportation is so hard that you can only get it once every 4 hours at daytime. Despite of that, i still patiently wait for that jumbo-jeep to arrive cause i might catch her there with her auntie. I was not able to visit her that often because their house was kilometers away from us. So everytime i see her inside that crowded jeepney, my heart jumps and...nothing more basta it jumps.


Anyway, to make this short story shorter, we became lovers illegally. Yes, everyone was terribly against us especially her uncle. So we kept it hidden and secret to her family. But because no secret can be a secret forever, her uncle surprised us one day while we're very sweet under that mango tree that still standing up to now. We're both in red that time and we're hot, i mean the color red is hot, not us actually. So because of that incident, she was grounded and warned not to meet me again. Because cellphone was not yet applicable to our place that time coz we dont have a cellsites yet in our province, we managed to keep our communication through love letters. So there's this one day that she did not respond to my letter and i sent another one and still she has no reply. I asked her bestfriend what happened why she stopped sending me letters. Her bestfriend told me that her uncle found and read all my sent letters and she was indeed grounded. Being a very resourceful person and a man full of spirit, i did not quit on her that easy and tried to seek some expert's advices. Unfortunately, after i searched the whole town for someone who can give me a hundred percent reliable "diskarte" on how can i send her my message (in fact the way for us to meet each other for the last time) i didn't get any positive advices. So i just decided to go home and have some rest and maybe just learn to forget her and live a peaceful life.




That afternoon, i was on my way home when i got surprised when someone bumped me from behind and i saw a familiar face, si "kapitbahay" who use to drink all day long and seems to be fully bored in his life. I just ignore him at first but he told me something that suddenly gave sparks to my mind. He spoke "Nung kaedad mo ko, nainlab ako sa isang babae. Pero tutol lahat samin. E mahal na mahal ko, kaya plinano kong itanan. E bantay sarado,  ginawa ko pinadalhan ko sulat. Pero di basta sulat pare. Malupet na sulat na kahit erpat nya hindi maiintindihan." On my curiosity, i asked him what kind of letter is that. That couldnt be in hieroglyphics style coz no one would really understand that. He pause for a while and seems to be recalling something and in a glimpse of a careless light, he fell off the ground, he's really drunk that time he cant even say a word. So i took him in their house and perhaps wait for him to get back to normal. That was already 7 in the evening and he's still asleep. I decided to go home and about to leave when his wife invited me for a dinner. I was already hungry then so i just nodded and grab some plate. While having dinner with his wife, i asked the martyr woman how can she manage to live with this kind of man. Before she replied, she told me a story first about how they end up to be a couple. "Tinanan nya kasi ako. E mahal ko kasi yan nun e. Pero kung di ako nainlab sa mga diskarte nyan di naman ako sasama dyan. Padalhan ba naman ako nyan ng sulat na ang bilin lang dun sa nagdala ay "basahin ko daw lahat pero wag kong pansinin yung ibang nakasulat". E di nagtaka ako kasi me maliliit na numbers sa bawat pangungusap..." she said. I laughed for a while after she told several funny stories and how she regret on having a marriage with this man. then i asked her if that letter is still on her possession and on my surprise, she's still keeping it and in fact showed me how it looks like. I thanked her and i left right away.


At home, 3 hours ago when i started to point my pen on the paper, still the paper is clean and blank. After 5 hours, at last i finished my own version of that tricky letter and it goes like this:


 To you,


1. Ang pagmamahal ko sayo'y
2. nawala na at ang di ko pagkagusto sayo ay
3. lalong lumalaki habang tumatagal. Pag nakikita kita
4. halos ayaw kitang tingnan.
5. Parang ang gusto ko gawin agad ay
6. tumingin sa ibang seksi at magandang babae. Hinding hindi ko papangarapin na
7. pakasalan ka. Syanga pala, gusto ko malaman mo na
8. sawang sawa na ako sayo at kung iniisip mo na
9. gustong-gusto kita makita,
10. nagkakamali ka. Napakasama mo. Siguro
11. kung maging tayo habang buhay, tinitiyak ko na
12. mahihirapan ako ng husto sayo at di totoo ang sinabi ko dati na
13. magiging maligaya ako sa piling mo. Ang puso kong ito'y
14. nakalaan na sa iba at wag ka nang umasa na ito'y
15. nakalaan pa rin sa'yo.Alam kong
16. ayaw mo na rin sakin pagkabasa mo nito at ang
17. gustong gusto mong
18. gawin ay isumpa ako. Di mo na gugustuhing
19. ako'y makita, alam ko din yun.
20. Di mo kelangang hilingin pero lilimutin na kita. At kung sa kabilang buhay, magkasalubong at
21. magkita tayo,
22. kahit sulyap sayo ay di ko gagawin. Naalala mo pa ba? Nung tayo ay nasa
23. sa tabi ng dagat.
24. Bigla ka nung nagwalk out at iniwan ako. Ang sakit nun. Kala ko di ka tuluyang aalis kaya sabi ko
25. hihintayin kita hanggang bukas
26. pero di ka na bumalik. Sana maging masaya ka sa buhay mo. Mula ngayon wala nang magsasabi sayo ng
27. "mahal na mahal kita"
28. tapos na tayo, paalam.


I really dont want anybody to know about this thing so i wrote it this way. I asked for my bestfriend's help to hand the letter and give to my dear but i instructed him to tell her to "read between the lines". I did not specify to instruct her to read only phrases in odd numbers (1,3,5,7,8,9,11,13,15,17,19,21,23,25,27) because i want to know if she's still interested. If she's still interested, she will read it over and over again until she finally understand (in fact, this is indeed a great letter that contain great words). But if she's really afraid to get caught by her uncle and auntie, she won't be bother reading it or even take a risk to meet me or even to write back.


My bestfriend was able to give her my letter and so i rushed to the seashore that afternoon and stayed to my other friend's hut nearby the shore. She didnt show up. I decided to sleep over and wait till morning but until noon the day after, she did not come. I went home with tears in my eyes. From that day on, i did not see her again. Her friends told me that right after that recognition day, she went off to somewhere to continue her studies there.


The year was 2007 when i found her in friendster. I was so excited that time so i sent her a message but i did not expect much because she might be still upset and hated me because of that letter that i sent her 5 years ago. On my surprise, she replied and she told me that she's so excited to meet me. Without anyone to stop us to meet once again, we got reunited after 5 years. I learned that she had a hard time understanding the letter and she had it understood late in the evening that time but unfortunately there occurred an emergency and she have to leave the barrio so she packed her things up and left the next morning. 


She's still keeping the letter and when her sister accidentally read it, she wondered and asked her  "how come you still keeping this letter?". A smile from her made her sister extremely puzzled.                                                                                                                                      
                                

Inspirational Love Story: A Teacher's Lesson

There is a story many years ago of an elementary teacher. Her name was Mrs. Thompson. And as she stood in front of her 5th grade class on the very first day of school, she told the children a lie. Like most teachers, she looked at her students and said that she loved them all the same.

But that was impossible, because there in the front row, slumped in his seat, was a little boy named Teddy Stoddard. Mrs. Thompson had watched Teddy the year before and noticed that he didn't play well with the other children, that his clothes were messy and that he constantly needed a bath. And Teddy could be unpleasant. It got to the point where Mrs. Thompson would actually take delight in marking his papers with a broad red pen, making bold X's and then putting a big "F" at the top of his papers.

At the school where Mrs. Thompson taught, she was required to review each child's past records and she put Teddy's off until last. However, when she reviewed his file, she was in for a surprise.

Teddy's first grade teacher wrote, "Teddy is a bright child with a ready laugh. He does his work neatly and has good manners. He is a joy to be around."

His second grade teacher wrote, "Teddy is an excellent student, well liked by his classmates, but he is troubled because his mother has a terminal illness and life at home must be a struggle."

His third grade teacher wrote, "His mother's death has been hard on him. He tries to do his best but his father doesn't show much interest and his home life will soon affect him if some steps aren't taken."

Teddy's fourth grade teacher wrote, "Teddy is withdrawn and doesn't show much interest in school. He doesn't have many friends and sometimes sleeps in class."

By now, Mrs. Thompson realized the problem and she was ashamed of herself. She felt even worse when her students brought her Christmas presents, wrapped in beautiful ribbons and bright paper, except for Teddy's. His present which was clumsily wrapped in the heavy, brown paper that he got from a grocery bag.

Mrs. Thompson took pains to open it in the middle of the other presents. Some of the children started to laugh when she found a rhinestone bracelet with some of the stones missing, and a bottle that was one quarter full of perfume. But she stifled the children's laughter when she exclaimed how pretty the bracelet was, putting it on, and dabbing some of the perfume on her wrist.

Teddy Stoddard stayed after school that day just long enough to say, "Mrs. Thompson, today you smelled just like my Mom used to." After the children left she cried for at least an hour. On that very day, she quit teaching reading, and writing, and arithmetic. Instead, she began to teach children.

Mrs. Thompson paid particular attention to Teddy. As she worked with him, his mind seemed to come alive. The more she encouraged him, the faster he responded. By the end of the year, Teddy had become one of the smartest children in the class and, despite her lie that she would love all the children the same, Teddy became one of her "teacher's pets."

A year later, she found a note under her door, from Teddy, telling her that she was still the best teacher he ever had in his whole life. Six years went by before she got another note from Teddy. He then wrote that he had finished high school, third in his class, and she was still the best teacher he ever had in his whole life.

Four years after that, she got another letter, saying that while things had been tough at times, he'd stayed in school, had stuck with it, and would soon graduate from college with the highest of honors. He assured Mrs. Thompson that she was still the best and favorite teacher he ever had in his whole life.

Then four more years passed and yet another letter came. This time he explained that after he got his bachelor's degree, he decided to go a little further. The letter explained that she was still the best and favorite teacher he ever had. But now his name was a little longer - the letter was signed, Theodore F. Stoddard, M.D.

The story doesn't end there. You see, there was yet another letter that spring. Teddy said he'd met this girl and was going to be married. He explained that his father had died a couple of years ago and he was wondering if Mrs. Thompson might agree to sit in the place at the wedding that was usually reserved for the mother of the groom. Of course, Mrs. Thompson did. And guess what? She wore that bracelet, the one with several rhinestones missing. And she made sure she was wearing the perfume that Teddy remembered his mother wearing on their last Christmas together.

They hugged each other, and Dr. Stoddard whispered in Mrs. Thompson's ear, "Thank you Mrs. Thompson for believing in me. Thank you so much for making me feel important and showing me that I could make a difference."

Mrs. Thompson, with tears in her eyes, whispered back. She said, "Teddy, you have it all wrong. You were the one who taught me that I could make a difference. I didn't know how to teach until I met you."

anjelique

She’s a girl i always meet everyday in RTU Pasig. She’s kinda chubby or chubby indeed. First time I saw her was in supreme student council. That was around june 2008, opening of the class. She’s with her new classmates when they approach us because one of them knew my friend. I was not in the good mood that time and my world is at its darkest hour. I saw this fatty chick maybe around 17 or 18 years of age. She caught my attention…yeah she did. When I started staring at her, my world began to light up as if the sun finally comes out and shines on my almost lost world.

I told my tropa "I like her". My best friend told me about my absurdity because I am being attracted to another flaccid again. Yes, maybe he’s right. My ex girlfriend and the one who hurt me most was also chubby. But what’s the connection? Not all chubby is cruel. Infact, shes beautiful but still I was intoxicated by my friend’s words.

The days passed and I decided to stop whatever potential feelings I might have for her. But there still sometime I got stuck on her. I don’t know (she didn’t know either). Like one time when I was encouraging members of youth humanist, I ask them who wants to join and she raise her hands right away. I’m impressed because she got interested in our club.

A week passed and I rarely see her in the campus. Maybe because I was too busy on my academics and I have no time to roam around (seriously :P). Until, around August when I saw her with her face painted all over. I learned they've just presented their cultural dance or something for the contest of Buwan ng Wika. I was preparing to perform then for the battle of the band. I heard shes murmuring words like "he keeps ignoring me". We’ll shes right and on that instance, I was really focused on our band’s performance.

Time flies and she's almost gone in my consciousness. But I noticed it is because im preventing myself to see her. The problem is we’re on the same little campus and we can still see each other even from both ends. Anyway, as a person trying to be nice, I treat her nice. When she smile at me I smile back to her. As if we're making commercial ad for close up toothpaste.

It was a month of September when our organization president forced me to join the search for Mr. RTU pageant. I was really nervous. Pageant is not my thing. During the elimination, I was astonished to this girl wearing white gown. Yes, shes fat and shes the girl I've been talking about in this story. I felt off to look at her, so I managed not to. Her presence is both irritating and discomforting I thought.

A month after and came a coronation of Mr Rtu. She didn’t pass the elimination so no chance for us to be partners. Before the program started we’re on our quarter and she keep on teasing me. I'm not sure if shes telling the truth about what she said that im sexy and handsome(what do you think?) but I was forced to believe.

During the talent portion, I was a little shaky coz the crowd is so noisy when I came on stage. I have to get a girl from the audience to serenade to showcase my talent. She came to me and stand beside me and I start strumming and singing a song to her. The crowd got crazy. They're asking me to kiss her. I thought she wanted a kiss but I decided not to, a hug will do.

The pageant was over yet and everybody were outside. They keep talking about what happened. I only got the second runner up but that’s ok. Shes with her peers when were about to go. She told me about the kiss thing. So I told her if I can kiss her at that moment. She said just on the cheek. I ask for her lips. She nodded. I kissed her. Then I left.

A week passed and im still astounded to what ive done including the kissing thing. I don’t know why I did that. Shes been texting me and one night she asked me whats that kiss for? I don’t know what to say. Im starting to feel guilty.

I decided to meet her just last night. She agreed to meet me at 11:30 evening. Unfortunately, i had another business to finish before proceeding to her place. I txtd her I cant come on time. She said she’ll wait. After an hour I left my friends heading to their house with my buddy. We arrived at two thirty and we saw her standing in front of their house. She told me shes been waiting for me for so long. Shes very excited to see me. Honestly, I am excited too to see her once again. Shes different that night. I don’t know why. She looks so beautiful in my eyes.

For almost an hour, we talked. She told me about many things. I cant help but to stare at her. But on our surprise her parents got awake and she hurriedly came into their house. I understood why she act like that so I texted her were leaving. She replied that we gotta be hurry coz her parents will kill her. So we went home.

On this day while im writing this article, she txted me that she cant go outside her room coz shes afraid her parents will beat her again. Im so sad to know that. She should blame me to what happened to her. She told me her parents use to beat her whenever she make mistakes. I was really touched and i feel so bad for her. I wish I can teleport through their house to back her up, tell her everything is gonna be fine. Im really so emotional this time coz I can do nothing to comfort her. Shes not beside me, I don’t know what shes doing right now at her room. Im bothered coz I think she haven’t eaten yet. She might be starving right now. What else....? I care for her…I really do...forget about everything I said on the first part. I completely fell for her.

Shes nice. I told her shes not special, shes beyond special. Why? Coz I never did such thing in my entire life on a girl. And all those time that im not seeing her Im in  blue…bluer than blue. (yes thats a song)

Once we meet again, I will sing the song I sang to her last rtu pageant event....I wanna grow old with her.

*Update (2017)

After solid 9 years of separation...we're still separated. haha..
She and I ended up to be lovers for several months but split up due to many reasons. She's the very first girl that I shed heavy tears on in my 21 years of existence (during 2008). She didn't know how much I wanted to sustain our relationship or how much I wanted to prolonge it. But things got really terrible between us that we cannot reconcile anymore. I still get to see her in the campus, hanging out with friends or alone. On few occasions, I tried to look into her eyes and guess how is she doing and I can see sadness and misery that she cannot hide. But shes a strong woman, she loves freedom and she always know what she wants. In no time, I heard she got another boyfriend, someone who's too far from my character, someone who could fit in on her demands and terms. I endured the pain of not having her back. I began to feel how I missed her, how much I wanted to talk to her and tell her how much I love her.

I stayed to feel alone in the coming months. I had a chance to pick someone to replace her but no one could replace the girl whom I fell in love with for unknown reasons. You read it right, I couldnt even tell why I loved her. She's messy looking girl, loved to party (which I hate) and her loyalty is always doubtful (like myself though). I started to put blame on my friends who diligently convinced me to stay away from her. But theres no one to blame but myself for being a coward, for letting myself beaten by tremendous pride.

I ended up with another relationship for almost a year of trying to forget her. The girl I met was almost identical to her in terms of character. At first I thought it was just a coincidence even for a fact that they have the same birth date. Though this one is younger than her, was 17 that time. I made myself believe that this is a whole new love only to find out that it was still her that I like to be with. I realized my real agenda which is to find her clone or create her clone to have a relationship with and have a brand new start. Wrong! I tasted another failure. The only difference is, I let go of "Anjelique's clone" smoothly with a couple buckets of beer and no tears at all.

4 years after our separation, I finally found someone. This is the second time that my heart beats again. I completely forgotten Anjelique at this moment. I'm not gonna put detail on this one as it also didnt turn out to be the best.

On this day, my 30th birthday, Anjelique sent me a message. What a surprise? With all honesty, this event tickles me and made my heart beat abnormally. All our memories suddenly popped up into my mind clearly and vividly. She changed a lot now specially physically. She's less adorable now compare to 2008 though I still find her sexy. And hey, her charm, her cute way of conversing, still hasn't changed. Plus she has more sense now than before. It's strange and kinda funny to get in touch again with a person who made me write my very first blog in this site circa 2008. Shes the sole reason I created this blog site which I didnt expect to still exist up to date with tons of posts already. The funnier thing is, we have our names at the url which I've put while I was deeply, madly in love with her and it looks like its the only thing that can say "there is forever". I tried to change the site address way, way back but my readers couldnt find this site anymore and so I retained the http://reyner-anjelique.blogspot.com.au/. Years come and passed and I kept creating new posts ignoring this url and I never thought it will turn out to be an epic url with a cheesy story behind. It's very ironic that the two names in this site's address only had each other for a very short period of time in real life but they are going to be inseparable in the vast world wide web as long as internet exist.