Anung Meron sa SMP?

Ito yung basic na pakahulugan sa SMP. Ito daw yung mga single, walang boyfriend/girlfriend, walang asawa, walang kalive-in, wala man lang kahit ka-"complicated relationship". Kaya daw lumamig ang pasko dahil wala man lang mayakap, walang ma-hug, walang makapalitan ng "i love you" sa text o sa tawag, walang makaputukan (syempre ng pikolo, rebentador o kwitis di ba? pero pwede na din yung iniisip mo), walang palad na maapuhap o makaholding hands tuwing fireworks habang sinasabi ang katagang "i love you baby, ang ganda ng fireworks nu? (namangha lang sa fireworks at malakas ang loob magsabi ng i love you dahil malakas ang putukan)".

Ano ngayon kung single ka ngayong pasko? Ano ngayon kung wala kang someone na malalambing at sasabihan ng:
Boy:Mahal, Merry Christmas. Sana di pa ito ang huling paskong magkakasama tayo. (kung wala pa kong mahahanap na kapalit mo.)
Girl: Merry Christmas din mahal.(Sana next year iba naman. Bad breath ka e.)

Single ka man ngayong pasko hindi problema yan. Aanhin mo naman ang karelasyon kung di naman talaga kayo nagmamahalan? :
Boy: Ayoko maging member ng SMP. Kelangan ko magkasyota.
Girl: Di na ako magiging member ng SMP dahil andito na sya.
Magiging sila para maglokohan. Magtatagal ang relasyon nila ng isang taon dahil January next year magbebreak na sila.

Bakit ka mag aalala sa pagiging kasapi ng SMP? May love partner ka nga ngayong pasko tinetake for granted ka lang naman:
Girl: Shet naman tong boyfriend ko alang kwenta. Kung di lang pasko bebreakin ko na tong basurang to e. Tsaka kung di lang dahil dito sa Black Berry na regalo nya sakin...naku. (choosy pa si ate? alang kwentang gf.)
Boy: Di ko sya maintindihan kung bakit parang CEO ng Meralco ang turing nya sakin. Ilang pasko na ding ganito. Kung inipon ko sana yung nairegalo ko sa kanya baka naipagamot ko at magaling na sana ngayon yung kapitbahay naming may TB. (ngayon isang bulate na lang ang di pa pumipirma para tuluyan ng madedo yung kapitbahay nila). Tsk.. mahal ko ba talaga sya? O baka naman sinusubukan nya lang ako.
(kawawa naman si kuya, ang totoo'y wala syang pakelam sa SMP dahil mawalan man sya ng gf ngayong pasko...sangkatutak naman ang nagmamahal sa kanya na mga kapamilya at kaibigan dahil sa sobrang bait nya....bulag at tanga lang talaga sa pag ibig ang malas na si kuya. nangyayari talaga yung ganun...huhuhuhu...nakakarelate ka ba? ako din e. huhuhu..)

Hindi mahalaga kung meron ka mang love partner ngayong pasko o wala! Ang mahalaga ay inienjoy at naeenjoy mo ang buhay kahit mag isa. Meron ka ngang karelasyon pero kabilang ka naman sa uri ng relasyong unang nabanggit, wala din, jejemon ka pag ganun. (ahehehe.. panu napasok jejemon dun? gulo nu?)

Sabi nga ni father nung minsang nagsimbang gabi ka na mag isa (at wala man lang masandalan ng ulo pag di na kinaya ang antok) "Ang pasko ay pagdiriwang para sa kapanakan ni Hesus na panginoon. Tanggapin mo sya sa iyong puso at magiging maligaya ka ngayong pasko." Ibig sabihin, hindi lang gf,bf,asawa o kabet (bigla ko naisip yung market! market! Ultimate Fighting Championship) ang magpapasaya ngayong pasko. Tingin ka lang sa paligid mo at makikita mo na nasa paligid mo lang ang mga taong magpapainit ng pasko mo (ooops.. dont get me wrong. hindi mga bading ang tinutukoy ko dito. kala mo ha. hmmm..). Andyan ang nanay mo (nestea commercial ito?), erpat mo, mga kapatid mo, mga kapatid mo sa labas, mga pamangkin mo, mga inaanak mo (o wag kang tumago..) mga tropa mo, bespren mo, kapitbahay mo at madami pang iba. WALANG DAHILAN PARA MALUNGKOT KA NGAYONG PASKO DAHIL LANG SA PAGIGING MIYEMBRO MO NG SMP! Maraming mga bagay na pwedeng magfulfill ng pasko mo at magpapasaya sayo. Kaya wag ka sanang magpanggap na "in a relationship" ka at baguhin mo na yang facebook status mo. Mas mabuti ng maging single kesa magkaron ng imaginary bf teh!


Huling Hirit:
"Maaaring naging tunay ang pagmamahalan nyo at naging maligaya kayo...di nga lang umabot ng pasko. Mabuti na yun kesa ilang pasko na ang dumaan na magkasama kayo pero nananatili pa rin kayong naglolokohan. hehe.."

A Letter for my Reishelle

Dear Reishelle.,

I know there's an ocean between us,
and I wish that it weren't true,
for every day when I arise,
I yearn to be with you.
Though a lot of distance lies between us,
you'll always be in my mind and my heart,
And every night beneath the stars,
I pray for the day we'll never be part.

Every day I will be thinking about you. When my eyes are closed, when I sing and dance to a love song, when I'm checking my FB and Mulitply, when I'm in office, I will be thinking about you. When I go to sleep in the loneliness of my room and give in to wonderful dreams I will definitely be thinking about you.

I have waited for someone like you, and now that I have found you I promise I'll take care of you the very best that I can with all of the love here in my heart and with all of the strength in my hands.
 
Love Always, 
R. V.

A Girl Who Felt Ignored

This story is about a girl who felt ignored..

I have a boyfriend who grew up with me. His name is Jin.
I always thought of him as a friend until last year, when we went to a trip from a club, I found out that I fell in love with him.
Before the trip was over, I took a step and confessed my love for him.
And soon, we became a pair of lovers, but we loved each other in different ways.
I always concentrated on him only, but by his side, there was so many other girls.
To me, he was the only one, but to him, maybe I was just another girl...
"Jin, do you want to go watch a movie?" I asked.
"I can't"
"Why? You need to study at home?" I felt disappointment grabbing me.
"No... I am going to meet a friend..."
He was always like that.
He met girls in front of me, like it was nothing.
To him, I was just a girlfriend.
The word 'love' only came out of my mouth.
Since I knew him, I had never heard I'm say 'I love you' before.
To us, there weren't any anniversaries at all.
He didn't say anything from the first day and it continued till 1O0 days...2O0 days...
Everyday, before we say goodbye, he would just hand me a doll, everyday, without fail. I don't know why...
Then one day...
Me: Um, Jin, I...
Jin: What...don't drag, just say...
Me: I love you.
Jin: ...........you.....um, just take this doll and go home.
That was how he ignored my 'three words' and handed me the doll.
Then he disappeared, like he was running away.
The dolls I received from him everyday, filled my room, one by one.
There were many....
Then one day came, my 15th year old birthday.
When I got up in the morning, I pictured a party with him, and stranded myself in my room, waiting for his call.
But... lunch passed, dinner passed...and soon the sky was dark... he still didn't call.
It was already tiring to look at the phone anymore.
2am in the morning, he suddenly called me and woke me from my sleep.
He told me to come out of the house.
Still. I felt joy and I ran out happily.
Me: Jin...
Jin: Here...take this...
Again, he handed me a little doll.
Me: What's this?
Jin: I didn't give it to you yesterday, so I am giving it to you now.
I'm going home now, bye.
Me: Wait, wait! Do you know what today is?
Jin: Today? Huh?
I felt so sad, I thought he would remember my birthday.
He turned around and walked away like nothing had happened.
Then I shouted...
"Wait..."
Jin: You have something to say?
Me: Tell me, tell me you love me...
Jin: What?!
Me: Tell me
I put my pathetic self behind and clung onto him.
But he just said simple cold words and left.
"I don't want to say...that I love someone so easily, if you are desperate to hear it, then find someone else."
That was what he said. Then ran off...
My legs felt numb...and I collapsed to the ground. He didn't want to say it easily...
How could he...
I felt that...
Maybe he is not the right guy for me...
After that day, I stranded myself at home crying, just crying.
He didn't call me, although I was waiting.
He just continued handing me a little doll every morning outside my house.
That's how those dolls piled up in my room... everyday
After a month, I got myself together and went to school.
But what made the pain resurface was that.... I saw him on a street...with another girl...
He had a smile on his face, one that he never showed me...as he touched the doll...
I ran straight back home and looked at the dolls in my room, and tears fell...
Why did he gave these to me...
Those dolls are probably picked out by some other girls...
In a fit of anger, I threw the dolls around.
Then suddenly, the phone rang. It was him.
He told me to come out to the bus stop outside my house.
I tried to calm myself down and walked to the bus stop.
I kept reminding myself that I am going to forget him, that....its going to end.
Then he came into my sight, holding a big doll.
Jin: Jo, I thought you were pissed, you really came?
I couldn't help hating him, acting like nothing had happened and joking around.
Soon, he held out the doll as usual...
Me: I don't need it.
Jin: What....why...
I grabbed the doll from his hands and threw it on the road.
Me: I don't need this doll, I don't need it anymore!! I don't want to see a person like you again!
I spitted out all the words that were inside me. But unlike other days, his eyes were very shaky.
"I'm sorry" He apologized in a tiny voice.
He then walked over to the road to pick up the doll...
"You stupid! Why are you picking up the doll?! Just throw it away!!!"
But he ignored me and just went to pick the doll.
Then...
Honk~ Honk~
With a loud honk, a big truck was heading towards him.
"Jin! Move! Move away!" I shouted...
But he didn't hear me, he squatted down and picked up the doll.
"Jin, move!"
HONK~!!!
"Boom!" That sound, so terrifying.
That's how he went away from me.
That's how he went away without evening opening his eyes to say one word to me.
After that day, I had to go through everyday with guiltiness and the sadness of losing him...
And after spending two months like a crazy person...
I took out the dolls.
Those were the only gifts he left me since the day we started going out.
I remembered the days I spent with him and started to count the days... when we were in love...
"One...two... three..."
That was how... I started to count the dolls...
"Four hundred and eighty four... four hundred and eighty five..."
It all ended with 485 dolls.
I then started to cry again, with a doll in my arms.
I hugged it tightly, then suddenly...
"I love you~, I love you~"
I dropped the dolls, shocked.
"I....lo..ve...you??"
I picked up the dolls and pressed its stomach.
"I love you~ I love you~"
It can't be!
I pressed all the dolls' stomach as it piled on the side.
"I love you~"
"I love you~"
"I love you~"
Those words came out non-stop.
I...love you...
Why didn't I realize that.....
That his heart was always by my side, protecting me.
Why didn't I realize that he love me this much...
I took out the doll under the bed and pressed it's stomach, that was the last doll, the one that fell on the road.
It had his blood stain on it.
The voice came out, the on that I was missing so much...
"Jo...Do you know what today is? We've been loving each other for 486 days. Do you know what 486 is? I couldn't say I love you.... Um... since I was too shy... If you forgive me and take this doll, I will say that i love you... everyday... till I die... Jo... I love you..."
The tears came flowing out of me. Why? Why? I asked god, why do I only know about all this now?
He can't be by my side, but he loved me until his last minute...
For that... and for that reason... to me... it became courage... to live a beautiful life...

Time Understands Love

Once upon a time there was an island where all the feelings lived; Happiness, Sadness, Knowledge, and all the others......, including Love.  One day it was announced to all of the feelings that the island was going to sink to the bottom of the ocean. So all the feelings prepared their boats to leave. Love was the only one that stayed. She wanted to preserve the island until the last possible moment.  When the island was almost totally under, Love decided it was time to leave. She began looking for someone to ask for help. Just then Richness was passing by in a grand boat. Love asked,  "Richness, Can I come with you on your boat?"  Richness answered, "I'm sorry, but there is a lot of silver and gold on my boat and there would be no room for you."  Then Love decided to ask Vanity for help who was passing in a beautiful vessel. Love cried out,  "Vanity, help me please!"  "I can't help you", Vanity said, "You are all wet and will damage my beautiful boat."  Next, Love saw Sadness passing by. Love said,  "Sadness, please let me go with you."   Sadness answered, "Love, I'm sorry, but, I just need to be alone now."  Then, Love saw Happiness. Love cried out,   "Happiness, please take me with you."  But Happiness was so overjoyed that he didn't hear Love calling to him. Love began to cry. Then, she heard a voice say,  "Come Love, I will take you with me."  It was an elder. Love felt so blessed and overjoyed that she forgot to ask the elder his name.  When they arrived on land the elder went on his way. Love realized how much she owed the elder. Love then found Knowledge and asked,  "Who was it that helped me?"  "It was Time", Knowledge answered.  "But why did Time help me when no one else would?", Love asked. Knowledge smiled and with deep wisdom and sincerity, answered, "Because only Time is capable of understanding how great Love is."

With Love, There Will be no Discrimination

I came across to a certain poem while surfing the net and this one really enlightened my mind even better. It was authored by an African child and was declared as one of the best poem ever created. It goes like this:

Coloured


When I born, I Black,
When I grow up, I Black,
When I go in Sun, I Black,
When I scared, I Black,
When I sick, I Black,
And when I die, I still black...
And you White fellow,
When you born, you pink,
When you grow up, you White,
When you go in Sun, you Red,
When you cold, you blue,
When you scared, you yellow,
When you sick, you Green,
And when you die, you Gray...
And you calling me colored??

Even though there is not much issue of racial discrimination today unlike in the past, we still have to think that discrimination of any kind should be condemned. Now here in the Philippines although there is no issue of racial discrimination, still an undying conflict between the poor and the rich is at stake. It become more extreme as time goes by as i observed. Some entity or element is favorable to rich people that makes the latter more privileged and fortunate while because of having a very low social status, poor people have gotten only an unequal treatment and sometimes inhumane treatment.

If this is the problem, why don't we just love each other and just treat each other equally regardless of color, status in life etc. What is the essence of God teachings that is being taught in different churches if a mere discrimination cannot be totally eliminate. Well maybe because even the religions has its own form of discrimination and this makes a discrimination more complicated as it seems. Well, if this is the case, is religion still necessary to attain the zero-discrimination society? Well im not atheist but even a person who doesn't believe in god can be the best one if he love and doesn't discriminate other people.

I'm not saying in general that all of those who are in an upper class are used to inequality against another. I'm thankful that there are people who still treating their fellows fair and equal. I guess they know what love is and and they understand its broadness and can even apply it in real life by making good things towards the other e.g. being not a discriminant.

Discrimination is a root of major conflicts in a history and a sole reason why most people suffer. Well its impossible to attain a discrimination free world but at least everyone is aware and everyone is able to figure out that "With Love, There Will be no Discrimination." Let's not discriminate.

The Letter

I was so blue, that day. My chances to see my one and only true love has vanished.
Way back 2002, i got inloved to this really pretty girl, in the name of... oh i rather not to mention. 
She's nice inside and out, i mean aside from her looks, she's also friendly and nice to be with.
I was barely 15 that time (young and innocent for the typical teenager, but not in my case) when i first saw her and got obsessed to her. We're living in a barrio that time where means of transportation is so hard that you can only get it once every 4 hours at daytime. Despite of that, i still patiently wait for that jumbo-jeep to arrive cause i might catch her there with her auntie. I was not able to visit her that often because their house was kilometers away from us. So everytime i see her inside that crowded jeepney, my heart jumps and...nothing more basta it jumps.


Anyway, to make this short story shorter, we became lovers illegally. Yes, everyone was terribly against us especially her uncle. So we kept it hidden and secret to her family. But because no secret can be a secret forever, her uncle surprised us one day while we're very sweet under that mango tree that still standing up to now. We're both in red that time and we're hot, i mean the color red is hot, not us actually. So because of that incident, she was grounded and warned not to meet me again. Because cellphone was not yet applicable to our place that time coz we dont have a cellsites yet in our province, we managed to keep our communication through love letters. So there's this one day that she did not respond to my letter and i sent another one and still she has no reply. I asked her bestfriend what happened why she stopped sending me letters. Her bestfriend told me that her uncle found and read all my sent letters and she was indeed grounded. Being a very resourceful person and a man full of spirit, i did not quit on her that easy and tried to seek some expert's advices. Unfortunately, after i searched the whole town for someone who can give me a hundred percent reliable "diskarte" on how can i send her my message (in fact the way for us to meet each other for the last time) i didn't get any positive advices. So i just decided to go home and have some rest and maybe just learn to forget her and live a peaceful life.




That afternoon, i was on my way home when i got surprised when someone bumped me from behind and i saw a familiar face, si "kapitbahay" who use to drink all day long and seems to be fully bored in his life. I just ignore him at first but he told me something that suddenly gave sparks to my mind. He spoke "Nung kaedad mo ko, nainlab ako sa isang babae. Pero tutol lahat samin. E mahal na mahal ko, kaya plinano kong itanan. E bantay sarado,  ginawa ko pinadalhan ko sulat. Pero di basta sulat pare. Malupet na sulat na kahit erpat nya hindi maiintindihan." On my curiosity, i asked him what kind of letter is that. That couldnt be in hieroglyphics style coz no one would really understand that. He pause for a while and seems to be recalling something and in a glimpse of a careless light, he fell off the ground, he's really drunk that time he cant even say a word. So i took him in their house and perhaps wait for him to get back to normal. That was already 7 in the evening and he's still asleep. I decided to go home and about to leave when his wife invited me for a dinner. I was already hungry then so i just nodded and grab some plate. While having dinner with his wife, i asked the martyr woman how can she manage to live with this kind of man. Before she replied, she told me a story first about how they end up to be a couple. "Tinanan nya kasi ako. E mahal ko kasi yan nun e. Pero kung di ako nainlab sa mga diskarte nyan di naman ako sasama dyan. Padalhan ba naman ako nyan ng sulat na ang bilin lang dun sa nagdala ay "basahin ko daw lahat pero wag kong pansinin yung ibang nakasulat". E di nagtaka ako kasi me maliliit na numbers sa bawat pangungusap..." she said. I laughed for a while after she told several funny stories and how she regret on having a marriage with this man. then i asked her if that letter is still on her possession and on my surprise, she's still keeping it and in fact showed me how it looks like. I thanked her and i left right away.


At home, 3 hours ago when i started to point my pen on the paper, still the paper is clean and blank. After 5 hours, at last i finished my own version of that tricky letter and it goes like this:


 To you,


1. Ang pagmamahal ko sayo'y
2. nawala na at ang di ko pagkagusto sayo ay
3. lalong lumalaki habang tumatagal. Pag nakikita kita
4. halos ayaw kitang tingnan.
5. Parang ang gusto ko gawin agad ay
6. tumingin sa ibang seksi at magandang babae. Hinding hindi ko papangarapin na
7. pakasalan ka. Syanga pala, gusto ko malaman mo na
8. sawang sawa na ako sayo at kung iniisip mo na
9. gustong-gusto kita makita,
10. nagkakamali ka. Napakasama mo. Siguro
11. kung maging tayo habang buhay, tinitiyak ko na
12. mahihirapan ako ng husto sayo at di totoo ang sinabi ko dati na
13. magiging maligaya ako sa piling mo. Ang puso kong ito'y
14. nakalaan na sa iba at wag ka nang umasa na ito'y
15. nakalaan pa rin sa'yo.Alam kong
16. ayaw mo na rin sakin pagkabasa mo nito at ang
17. gustong gusto mong
18. gawin ay isumpa ako. Di mo na gugustuhing
19. ako'y makita, alam ko din yun.
20. Di mo kelangang hilingin pero lilimutin na kita. At kung sa kabilang buhay, magkasalubong at
21. magkita tayo,
22. kahit sulyap sayo ay di ko gagawin. Naalala mo pa ba? Nung tayo ay nasa
23. sa tabi ng dagat.
24. Bigla ka nung nagwalk out at iniwan ako. Ang sakit nun. Kala ko di ka tuluyang aalis kaya sabi ko
25. hihintayin kita hanggang bukas
26. pero di ka na bumalik. Sana maging masaya ka sa buhay mo. Mula ngayon wala nang magsasabi sayo ng
27. "mahal na mahal kita"
28. tapos na tayo, paalam.


I really dont want anybody to know about this thing so i wrote it this way. I asked for my bestfriend's help to hand the letter and give to my dear but i instructed him to tell her to "read between the lines". I did not specify to instruct her to read only phrases in odd numbers (1,3,5,7,8,9,11,13,15,17,19,21,23,25,27) because i want to know if she's still interested. If she's still interested, she will read it over and over again until she finally understand (in fact, this is indeed a great letter that contain great words). But if she's really afraid to get caught by her uncle and auntie, she won't be bother reading it or even take a risk to meet me or even to write back.


My bestfriend was able to give her my letter and so i rushed to the seashore that afternoon and stayed to my other friend's hut nearby the shore. She didnt show up. I decided to sleep over and wait till morning but until noon the day after, she did not come. I went home with tears in my eyes. From that day on, i did not see her again. Her friends told me that right after that recognition day, she went off to somewhere to continue her studies there.


The year was 2007 when i found her in friendster. I was so excited that time so i sent her a message but i did not expect much because she might be still upset and hated me because of that letter that i sent her 5 years ago. On my surprise, she replied and she told me that she's so excited to meet me. Without anyone to stop us to meet once again, we got reunited after 5 years. I learned that she had a hard time understanding the letter and she had it understood late in the evening that time but unfortunately there occurred an emergency and she have to leave the barrio so she packed her things up and left the next morning. 


She's still keeping the letter and when her sister accidentally read it, she wondered and asked her  "how come you still keeping this letter?". A smile from her made her sister extremely puzzled.